Missing

I miss you.

I don't miss you.

Automatic reciprocity has been conditioned as a default, but honesty doesn't accept this. I am learning then to more align what I say with what I act, even if I use markers of concession often.

I think there's a pressure not wholly self-generated to miss the person who misses me. Unrequited missing has happened to me before, and I recognised through that that the pressure falsely represents reality. Some people just don't miss others who miss them.
 
In Mad Men, Faye Miller says to Don early in season four: "In a nutshell, it all comes down to what I want versus what’s expected of me."

My ego mind has a problem with being missed. But I understand further than it.